Friday, 12 March 2010

Angels in our family

Life has a strange way of giving us experiences to help us grow. Today I found out we are no longer having a baby. I had an ultra sound 10 day ago which raised concerns. Today the concerns were confirmed. The baby has not developed as babies normally do. There is a gestational sac, but they think the baby stopped developing after 4 weeks.

The past 10 days have been an emotional rollercoaster. Deep down inside I knew something was really wrong - but I refused to let myself go there because I wanted to use faith. I knew God could fix this. I knew he could help us have a healthy baby. But today when they told me I knew. I already knew. But I didn't want to believe it. I'm not sure why we have had to go through this. It's heartbreaking.

I'm grateful I wasn't sure of my dates - because if I was more sure of my dates I wouldn't have been sent for an early ultra sound. I'm grateful to know now. I would be 10 weeks right now.

I met Peirce at the bus today and while walking home I told him. He said, "Oh mom, that's so sad. Why does this happen so much?"

I told him I didn't know - and that it made me sad too - but that I was sure grateful to have the two children I do have. He said to me, "You don't have two children....now you have four."

He's right.

We were going to have a baby, but instead we had an angel. Again.

7 comments:

Sue Anne said...

Dawn,

So sorry to hear this news :( ...

What a sweet little boy you have in Pierce.

Gilly said...

I'm so sorry. I know how hard that is. We'll be praying for you.

Becky CTR said...

If Peirce isn't the cutest little guy……

I am sure sorry for your loss. <3

Alysha said...

I'm so sorry to hear that. You're in our prayers

Colleen said...

So sorry...Another angel for our family. We sure love you and will keep you in our prayers. Big Hugs!

The Lawlor's said...

sorry Dawn. I'll be thinking of you and your family.

Becky said...

Dawn-
We love you and will be praying for you. I wish I could take away the hurt for you.